[music - Under Rug Swept Alanis Morisette]

21 Things I Want in a Lover

by

Alanis

do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?

do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?

do you have a big intellectual capacity but know that it alone does not equate wisdom?

do you see everything as an illusion?

but enjoy it even though you are not of it?

are you both masculine and feminine?

politically aware?

and don't believe in capital punishment?

these are 21 things that I want in a lover

not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer

do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that loving someone can actually feel like freedom?

are you funny?

a la self-deprecating?

like adventure?

and have many formed opinions?

these are 21 things that I want in a lover

not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer

I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter

these are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover

I'm in no hurry I could wait forever

I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo

there are no worries and certainly no pressure

in the meantime I'll live like there's no tomorrow

are you uninhibited in bed?

more than 3 times a week?

up for being experimental?

are you athletic?

are you thriving in a job that helps your brother?

are you not addicted?

. . . curious and communicative . . .

So this song is the epitome of my life right now. (Well, maybe I'd have a few more than 21, change some of hers up a bit, but yeah this pretty much sums it up) I'm living my life without regrets & having fun in the process. Now that Phoenix is getting closer & closer my feelings on it flip more often. I think its just nerves because this is a HUGE step but I'm insanely excited @ the same time. So I have had 3 people @ 3 different times respond to me & my reasons for moving to Arizona with, "OMG, you're gonna meet someone aren't you?" Now I really don't understand how my moving to be a part of this church have anything to do with members of the opposite sex! No I do not know anyone in Phoenix of the opposite sex so don't get your lil minds a-workin cuz that is absolutely not the reason for my migration to the Midwest but everyone's match-making attempts & pondering of my motives has made my mind wander. It'd just be nice to have someone to chill with that gives me butterflies. But I don't want to walk into Phoenix with boys on the brain. My purpose is to get closer to God & really pursue my destiny on my own terms (or should I say God's). I just feel like I need to free myself from this place, to get to a place where there isn't so much cling & clatter above my head making it difficult to focus on God long enough to hear what He's trying to say to me. & if a boy comes later, icing on the cake! But God is the 3 course meal I'm after & hopefully Phoenix will be & is the place God has called for me to be this season.