[music - Shout God's Fame Hillsong London]

So Sunday, I was feeling rather weird, & the most frustrating part was I had no idea why!!!!! It was just one of those days where it's a struggle to worship & it takes everything in you just to lift your hands. But from the moment I walked into the sanctuary God was talkin right to me. Me & my Mom walked in to the praise team singing this song with a chorus that goes

"Praise the Lord, it'll make you feel better, I know it will.
Just praise the Lord, it'll make you feel better."

Convo #1 & I knew it! But it just didn't seem to make the heavy cloak on me any lighter. Then during a transition into a new song, my favorite singer on the worship team (Maggie...I think! ::crosses fingers:: or maybe it was Dorkus...I dunno, anyway) She said,

"You know, in the bible it says that if we only have faith the size of a mustard seed we can move mountains!"

What's crazy about that is on the way to church I was brainstorming on more designs & was trying to work one out about moving mountains! It was like God was saying,

"It isn't enough that I give you this design about faith so I'll get the praise team to say it to you! Maybe then you'll get it!"

& I did.

I've been getting down on myself because my faith wasn't the size it used to be, but He never asked that of me. & It's okay for it to shrink sometimes because I am only human. In the words of John Reuben, "That's an expectation I shouldn't expect & that's a bar I shouldn't have set!" lol I love life in all its imperfections. I love me in all my imperfections. & I can do that because I trust in the One who is perfect!!!

Life is good