okay, call me weird...

....but I can't wait to be a mom!!!

I know you're wondering, "Is Christin pregnant?!" lol
no no no people.
have you ever seen the new abc show Brothers & Sisters?
it's about this extremely disfunctional family
& I love it!
they are not even close to being perfect
they're screw ups, crazys, & addicts
but they love each other with all the sincerity of the heavens
& I know that those years
the years where I finally get to play mom
will be the best years of my life

Trust, I'm loving life now
& I'm not trying to be married or pregnant any time soon
but if you know the tiniest thing about me you know that I am a family person 100%
so it's definitely been a little difficult being so far away from the fam
but hands down, the distance has only brought my family & I closer

I absolutely adore my mom
--& I'm seriously planting seeds for her to move to the desert--
but more than anything I admire & respect her so much
she's raised 2 kids who aren't too shabby if I do say so myself
(we're all entitled to a little horn tooting every once & awhile)
who love her like crazy!
I mean even my bro would say that he's close friends with our mom
& that's saying a lot for a 14 yr-old
she's impacted & influenced our choices, our character, our lives
more than anyone on this planet ever could.
She's been the crying sholder, the swift kick in the pants, & the cheereleader our whole lives
& she doesn't seem to be slowing down any time soon
she & only she has mastered the timing of which hat to put on when & for how long
(I'm hoping that comes with childbirth)
the older I get the more I realize I truly am turning into my mother
& everyday I thank God for it

She is the one who has taught me to love unconditionally,
dream the impossible, & believe in the only thing that's worth believing in
she still talks about my vivid imagination that I had as a child
& how it baffles her that I've held onto it for this long
but I pose the question to her
Well, where do you think I learned it from?

She is the reason I'm excited to start a family
she's taught me how invaluable they really are
& how lucky we are to count these people as jewels
our family is by no means perfect
but we love each other with everything that is in us
even though it's just me & my bro
I have cousins that looked after me like the older brothers & sisters I always never wanted
Aunts & neighbors who were definitely second mothers
& friends who knew exactly how I needed to be loved

I am blessed beyond measure
to say that life is good would be the understatement of a lifetime!
& there's nothing you can say to convince me otherwise